and I will love you even when you won't let me

I've kind of been waiting for some sort of jumping point.

you know, like to start really taking things seriously

waiting for a sort of "camp" experience and then i'd really start to

shape who i am.

that is such a horrible way of living.

really. it was stupid.

i don't need a jump start.

i need to see clearly and thats it.

i need to make moves to make myself better

i don't need a summer camp or something to get on  a God high

i need to want to be there.

and I do.