so it kinda sucks it took me this long to realize it

and it really sucks what it took for me to realize it

but that's what it took.

i took me failing a class and withdrawing from another

to realize two things, i now have a greater understanding

of how much my parents really do care about me and my

future. and it made me realize that i'm kind of retarded

in a "i think i'm smart way" I think that I can just get by

like in school, i think i can just get by doing almost nothing

just like in high school doing the bare minimum and i'd

get by okay, and now i know that that is complete crap.

I'm not that smart, I need to actually try.

and hopefully, my parents will see that this

horrible semester actually made me learn something

and they'll not be as pissed as i think they're going to be

which is i think they're going to kill me

so basically anything ending with me alive is pretty good.