hmm thanksgiving.

i've never really looked forward to thanksgiving

when i was little, we would go to some cousins house

and my mom's whole side of the family would be there

so its one of those things where i know 5 people

and don't know another 50.

but those 50 i don't know all knew me,

i always hated that. though the dinner itself wasn't so bad

then the cousin who put the whole shebang on got too old

or too sick or something to keep doing it

so then for the next couple years my mom cooked dinner

at our house with just our close family, which was fine

nothing special really. now since my uncle has remarried

we have thanksgiving at their house. again which is fine

but boring. i don't know where i'm really going here.

so yeah thanksgiving really doesn't hold any significance to me

i'm really excited for Christmas though.

it'll be good for one just to get out of school for awhile

my grades kind of suck. well two of my classes will

two of them i think im doing okay to fairly well in.

and im changing my major to teaching.

im not even talking about what i feel like right now

ha. whatever. i like listening to the Bible while I'm driving alone

got through all of John between today and yesterday.

every time Jesus say "I am" just i don't really know

i feel a little something just a sense of awe or something.

i'm just trying to be okay lately.